Tunnel Vision

Ok. So I sort of just…disappeared. But I can explain, or atleast, I can try.

At the moment, Im not in Alaska. Again, I can explain, or atleast…try.

When I quit my job awhile back, I figured I could get on with one of the summer places around town, and while that held true, after I looked into things a little harder, I decided I hadnt quit one high stress job, for another. For the past few weeks, I’ve been working two dead end part time jobs, making things meet for the month.

A few months ago, when I took Josh south for further testing, I was also checking out a possible job lead. A few years ago, after Molly passed away, I took an offer from a friend to work with him. Basically he buys houses dirt cheep, and fixes them up as fast as possible. In the two months I was on with him, he redid atleast four different places, including a foundation redo on one. He doenst mess around, he just gets it done as fast as possible. A few months ago, he had offered me a job, to work with him. But at the time, I couldnt just move the kids. The job wasnt in one set location, it was constantly moving, every few weeks. Had I not had the kids? I would have jumped on the chance. But with the kids, it wasnt something I was willing to do.

Last week, he offered me a job that was only for two weeks. Or, every so often. When he needed extra help. Like this week, and next week. It was really, a last minute decision. I was pulling things together at the last minute…having one hour before I had to leave, and writing about it fell to the way side.

So. Yea.

Im currently in Nevada. Stupid. I know. Or should I say, I NOW know. The heat down here is crazy. Almost as crazy as going to Arizona in the middle of summer. That kind of crazy.

The kids are doing good. I’ve called just about every night, and so far…even Josh seems to be holding out – he was the main reason I was thinking against coming.

Since being down here, however, I have had an opportunity to do more than just work…Being in a different place, seeing different people I have had a chance to actually see other kids, other people react and interact with other kids – like Josh. Back home, it’s the small town mentally. Everyone acts (or should act) the same way, and if they don’t, they automatically attract more attention. Because while there is a small handful of handicap people on the island – I have yet to see one person who actually shows similar behavior to Josh’s.

Its almost as if hes the only person out there – that is slightly different.

For now…its good news. The kids are doing great, I’ve got a job for a few weeks, and in another week, I will be back to the normal routine…back with the kids, and back into a more reasonable heat…not that Im complaining…I might take some sun back with me.

But until then…

I can hope for a few things…if not more…and most of all, continue to hope that the kids (especially Josh) treat the neighbor to a nice time…or you know…atleast act like human beings and not like wild animals…!